You still don't see,
How much you hurt me.

You don't care,
About you I swear.

You probably think,
I'm a mistake.

You probably wish I wasn't born,
Like I'm the thorn without the rose.

I couldn't care,
About you anymore.

I give up,
Trying to make you love me.

(Only one which is not true)

Here we sit,
Opposite ends,
Of the world,
Chatting.

Both suicidal,
Both have many scars,
Both been in rehab,
Both only 12.

We are a perfect match,
Only living for each other,
If I go,
She will go.

Our friendship is strong,
We won't go,
We each want,
The other to live.

This keeps us breathing,
You may think it dangerous,
To us its,
Our lifeline.

I've been away,
Not spoken in over 2 months,
She thought I'd gone,
and was about to do the same.

On MSN last night,
About to go,
Who was to turn up,
Her heroine.

I made myself known,
She looked at the screen,
Knife at her throat,
She smiles.

The Knife,
Falls,
Blood-free,
Because of me.

I was alive,
She thought me gone,
We depend on each other,
Through pain and war.

A promise shouldn't be said,
If its not to be kept,
It shouldn't be used to cause the pain,
You put me through.

The pain was more than I could handle,
I broke down,
Crying,
Looking out the window.

You said you'd come,
But that was a lie,
That was what,
Put me in pain.

What hurt me the most,
Is that you didn't phone,
Not since,
Not now.

You said you loved me,
You don't,
I relise that now.

Your not a mum,
just a shamful figure.

Why did you get me from court,
Just to drop me on nan's doorstep?

Your an adult,
You should be more responsible.

Why did you make me live with you and your girlfriend,
You knew she hurt me but you didn't leave.

Why did you go to France that day,
And never return?

How could you,
Drop me on that doorstep again?

Why didn't you tell me the truth,
Why say you were working?

Why didn't you tell me you were in prison?

Because the people who held the gun to my head,
Grassed on you?

Why when you came back,
Did you go with another girl.

One that lies to my nan,
Says I've been doing things that I havn't.

Why promise to come over,
But dont?

Why don't you call me,
If you can't make it.

Why do I still stand by you,
And love you,

When it seems you don't love me?