I wrote this from Edward Cullen's perspective about how he felt when he left Bella in "New Moon."
I left you out there in the wood Because my continence told me it was for your own good. My still heart tears when I see the look in your eyes The look of sadness, which I so strongly despise. You sit there on the ground staring in shock So strong, you can???t even talk. But I know this is only for the best To let you live life like all the rest. I???m a demon a monster, I deserve to go to hell The better side of me demands not to cast you with this spell. You???re my angel from heaven, the light of my life To leave you like this cuts like a knife. I want to run back and hold you tight Never letting you out of my sight. Your nice warm skin, your beating heart The dead one in me is tearing apart. You???re my lover, my angel, my soul mate To bite you would fill me with unimaginable personal hate. You are my banana, I your monkey I give you support when you are clumsy. Walking away I give my soul Without you I will never be whole. I love you enough to let you go I shake with dry sobs but won???t let it show. You deserve someone better someone who isn???t a devil like me. Someone who won???t damn you to living for an eternity. I???m running far, far away Begging you not to follow but stay. My continence is slowly pulling me back I beg of you, don???t fall for Black. Alice said you jumped the cliff And running through my head are a million ???what ifs???. You lost your life because of me I cannot live without you so I run to the Voutri. I demand them to kill but they will not fulfill. So I run to the village and sparkle in the sun rays Now I have nothing else to say. They have no choice but to let me die For life is over in my mind???s eye Without you I am hopelessly lost I will join you at any cost. I???m almost there. I???m almost free Away from living an eternity. Then I hear a faint scream and cry They turn to sobs and I don???t know why. These people don???t know me. They don???t know who I am So why would they even give a damn? Reluctantly I turn around They owner of the voice is no where to be found. Then I feel the faintest grip Someone slipping and then they trip. I look down and I see brown The face is more than a frown. I lift them up to face me To see who would give such a desperate plea. I see your eyes swimming with tears And in them I see a million fears. I hold you tight against my chest Having you there is a feeling so much better than the rest. How could I be so stupid and believe such a lie I never wanted you to die. I have no choice but to believe that it???s true That the person in my arms is really you. Why did I not just listen to my heart? Why did I think to do this in the start? All I wanted was to protect But the after math of what I did is even worse than I expect. I promise you with all of me That now my mistake I clearly see. I solemnly swear to leave you never Have you be mine, for ever and ever.
17 years, 6 months & 1 day ago
