I suppose a non-stalker introduction is in order here! haha, my name is Ashtin and I have seen you around Mara quite a bit, and I have always had an eye for those lovely earth fairy costumes! and little to your knowledge YOUR Lybri! He has caught my eye in pet trading more than a couple times. <3 So I would absolutely love to have the honor of applying for him in this giveaway.
So! let's get down to the nitty-gritty, "Have you ever regretted doing something in real life?"
oh. . if you only knew. :/
I regret so many things I have acted out on, or said to others. and I have literally tried to recover and scrape together any ounce of dignity I could pull together in the past few months. Ironically though, what has affected so many of my loved ones: is what I have done to myself.
I actually fell extremely deep into an eating disorder. so deeply in fact, I was hospitalized and sent to inpatient with a feeding tube. Currently I am in an intensive outpatient program and still battling every day with this disease. When my family discovered my secrets, habits, and rituals-- they were devastated. They simply didn't understand the disease and how it turns you into a monster, a self-hating monster in fact.
It will take years for me to recover the trust I lost within my family, but I can't say I don't deserve it. I will never be able to forgive myself, for the scars on my wrists are a reminder I must see every day.
Which helps me transition into why your Lybri means so much to me, already. It's the costume. The earth fairy costume is one of my favorites, because it's one of the few Mara costumes that has food in it. These pets are so lovely, and they are surrounded in food. . . it may seem a little far-fetched. but these pets are comforting to me in my recovery from my eating disorder.
Learning you can have food and beauty is a lesson I regret not learning earlier.